do you ever start your period and think
"well that explains a lot"
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Sometimes life is more than I ever thought logical or possible. And it’s not about racing from one big moment to another. Sometimes it’s about sitting on the beach with your toes in the sand because your flight home was cancelled. Sometimes it’s lacing your oldest friend in life into her wedding dress. Or walking through Manhattan and seeing it - REALLY seeing it - for the first time ever. Sometimes it’s a quiet train ride with a good book. Sometimes it’s knitting a scarf for your best friend. Sometimes it’s waiting patiently and quietly for the bigger moments while the smaller ones unfold. It’s knowing you’re in complete control of your life. It’s knowing you have friends there in case you screw up. It’s knowing you’re the kind of person who will be there when they mess up. It’s a purring cat on your lap; a knowing glance from a friend or family member; an early flight out on little to no sleep with a safe and comfortable home waiting at the journey’s end. Its reuniting after years apart and feeling like you’ve never been away. It’s seeing a picture of your childhood home, the sound of your mom’s voice when you’ve had a bad day. It’s a stressful, rewarding job and a Saturday evening at home with a good movie.
Sometimes it’s the big stuff but mostly it’s the little stuff.
I’ve been saying a lot of the same things lately but I am so afraid I’m going to forget. And I don’t ever want to forget the tearful joy of everyday life, because I know it won’t last forever. One day I’ll be bored or heartbroken or sad or aching - but now, right now, this is a wonderful life.@2 days ago
A year ago this week, my whole life changed - new job, new city, new everything. There were days I was ready to give up and move home. Days I would’ve preferred to stay in bed and watch Netflix (days I actually did do just that). There were days I just couldn’t do anything but fight my tears. Nothing was easy. Everything was difficult. Everything hurt.
I’m glad it was that way. Because today, I have a great (challenging) job, a paycheck that allows me to travel to my friends and new places, new friends, a roof over my head, a furbaby that sleeps at my feet every night, new food and drinks and laughter all the time, a family that is unlike any other, and more love than I know what to do with some days.
Sometimes I think it’s a joke. But then - it’s all mine. It’s imperfect. It’s sometimes boring, sometimes stressful, sometimes weird. But it’s mine. And when it’s bad I know how to fix it. And when it’s good I know how to revel in it.
So maybe I’ll wake up tomorrow in my bed in Vermont with an empty and dull ache in my heart for something new. But at least I’ll know it’s possible, and taking that first step will be easier.
So this week, I’m thankful for possibilities. Who knows what next year will bring.@1 week ago